STENBB!!!



OMG! It's not as awesome as the Puck video, because it's not actually a video, but STILL AWESOME.

edit: salkdhjshd, I WANT THIS. I have never paid that much for a tshirt before, ever, but omg, i want it. :|

...have you always been able to listen to the radio using iTunes?? When did this happen? How did I miss this? Dude, it's awesome! There's like 100 stations in the rock sections, omg. I've already heard a bunch of bands I've never heard before AND I HEARD DOPE! This is beyond fun!!

( THIS IS ME KEEPING TRACK OF STATIONS I LIKE! )

I'm getting sick, but I think it's just a cold or something? Sniffles and feeling like crap, basically. But it's weird because for the past two days I have been eating like a fucking MONSTER. Seriously. I had a HUGE plate at dinner and then two hours later I was so hungry again. And like, I am eating a ton of meat, which is pretty weird (unless it's steak or fajita night) for me. IDEK. I want to not feel gross though. Although, lol, winter is coming so THAT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. My joints already hurt. :\

I really want to go see Where the Wild Things Are Friday, but it's not gonna happen and that makes me a sad panda. I would like a job and money of my own world, that would be AWESOME. Then I could fix my car, get my license, and go see a fucking movie when I wanted. Or go dancing. Okay, maybe not dancing because, lol, lets be real, I will probably be working weekends anywhere that hires me. WHATEVER DNW TO DWELL ON THIS BS.

I keep having these weird ass dreams where RPG and TV shows infiltrate real life? Like.. characters will just appear in random, real life situations. IDEK, I can't actually remember the dreams ever, so it's especially weird.

OH. We got two more RES today. So now we have 15 of them. THAT IS A LOT OF TURTLES (lol, we actually have 25 turtles all together though, which IS EVEN MORE).

I was reduced to tears in the middle of Walmart earlier. Jesus fucking christ it was awful.

I'm sure you remember me talking about babysitting about this time last year for a friend? If not, last year I basically took on playing nanny for a (at the time) friend of mine, taking care of her 1yo son & 3yo daughter, for a couple months. You may also remember a few months later my mentioning I was no longer speaking to her (because I DO NOT AGREE WITH THE WAY SHE DOES ANYTHING AND IT PISSES ME OFF AND I FUCKING WANT TO STAB THINGS). Not speaking to her anymore, however, meant I no longer got to see the kids either.

Except today we ran into Cassie (said ex-friend)'s dad, who happened to have Zayda (her daughter) with him. I didn't even realize who it was at first, just this cute little girl we avoided running over, you know? But then she smiled at me and I was like saJhdagysgfuhgbasjdh and had to quickly walk away to stop from crying right there. BUT OF COURSE FUCKING FATE HATES ME. 20 minutes (or so) later THEY FUCKING FOUND US AGAIN AND HER DAD STOPPED TO TALK TO ME. Zayda had apparently remembered who I was and TOLD HIM and sajkhdjsahjkhsd the second they walked away I burst into tears. THIS ISN'T FUCKING FAIR, IT'S JUST NOT. I adored those kids sfm and jesus it hurts.

I HATE PEOPLE SO FUCKING MUCH SOMETIMES. (Please note that I am talking about Cassie and Cassie, well okay no, her (ex)husband too, alone in this statement!)

Dear Internet,

Usually I think you're really fucking awesome and you help keep me sane. But today? Today I kind of think YOU SUCK MASSIVE BALLS.

No love,
Me

P.S. THE SAME AND WORSE COULD BE SAID FOR YOU GMAIL


Here, have a meme!

→ Open your itunes / winamp player.
→ Put to shuffle mode.
→ Find pictures of the first 20 artists. If repeated, skip it.
→ Have your friends list guess the 20 artists.

( Piiiiiicutres )

So you know what's totally AWESOME? If you guessed NOT HAVING ANY RUNNING WATER, you're right~. And probably a total douchebag. But whatever.

Apparently something went wonky with putting the new hot water heater in yesterday because it started leaking late last night. So we have no water until sometime this evening when dad gets home from work and fixes it. But hey, at least I don't have to help clean the house today. That's a plus.


On a completely different note now! I watched Ghosts of Girlfriends Past just now. It was cute, I liked it. Definitely a worthy chick flick. A few days ago I watched Hannah Montana: the movie (haters fuck off) and it was cute. I actually liked it, although I wish there would have been more Lily (Lilly?) in it. I still have three movies on my computer and I'm looking for another to download (feel free to rec, I am a fool for them).

I'm too tired to reply to RPG stuff, but I'm at that weird point of tired where I don't quite want to lay down and go to sleep either, which IDK if you've ever experienced that particular feeling, but it's QUITE ANNOYING. My brain has, like, shut down nearly, but the rest of me won't. Ugh, IDEK, but I don't like it.

You know what I do like though? Eureka. OMFG, this weeks episode made me SO, SO HAPPY. Literally sit up and SQUEE happy. Anyone who watches (which I know Tricia does, but IDK if anyone else does or not) will understand why.

I still haven't managed to finish my 50 facts about myself. I've gotten to 20 and that's it. Uggggh. :(

Um, I am ADDICTED to Kate Miller-Heidke - Caught in the Crowd. You should all go check it out. It's an amazing song and I'm not even joking, I've gotten teary eyed every time I've listened to it so far. Which has been a lot, since again, addicted.

God I wish I had something meaningful or interesting to update this place with. Wouldn't that be a weird ass change from what y'all normally get from me? It's be like a complete 180. XD

Okay, anyways, I'm going to go and try thinking up more facts to add to this damn meme..

( Info on 31 Shows! )


Anyways! I do NOT promise all the premier dates are right, okay, so if you're really invested in a show, you should probably double check.

Okay, so my parents went down to my grandma's this weekend, and me and Dalt have been home alone. I have decided I am not especially fond of this. It's been weird, IDK, I don't like it. I mean, every thing has been totally fine, but it's quiet and unsettling. Especially since Dalt and I have like polar sleep schedules atm.

Okay, moving on, I have a bump by my cartilage piercing and it's fucking annoying, but otherwise it's healing great. I've totally decided how I plan to do my hair next! Once it grows out maybe 4 more inches or so, I'm shaving one side. (Like one of the girls in BeatFreaks). And sometime next week I'm going to dye it red. I have the dye, but I've got this special blonde shampoo, so I want to use it all up first. I know, I'm weird, but I don't want to fuck up my new color because of my shampoo.

I am so thrilling y'all! LOL, okay, anyways, tv ramble. ( As you can guess from the tags, 10 Things I Hate About You, America's Best Dance Crew, Being Human, Criminal Minds, Dark Blue, Eureka, Hana Kimi, Leverage, Make It or Break It, Psych, & Warehouse 13 rambles )

Okay, aside from that I've given in and am working on d/l S1 of Gossip Girl now. And since I've rambled enough, I'm going to go watch 17 Again now, and try and work on Akiko's personality. :\

I did the other last.fm meme going around on my IJ, so I'll do this one here. I'm slowly working on my 50 facts, but I got kind of long winded on the ones I have (13 atm), and then couldn't think of anything interesting, lol. Sooo anyways, stolen from kyriolexy!

( I like memes, what can I say.. )

Snagged from outofpotions

Here's a way to glimpse into friends' musical tastes. Lost gems, embarrassing things - who knows. But don't cheat.

Once you've been tagged (1) Turn on your MP3 player. (2) Go to SHUFFLE songs mode. (3) Write down the first 25 songs that come up--song title and artist--NO editing/cheating.

( Soooooooooongs below hurr. )


I am tempted to steal the 50facts meme thing from Sten, but not right now, because it's like 4AM and I am sleepy, and it'd be a BIG RAMBLY MESS.

BUT I DO HAVE A REQUEST! I'm working on a list of movies I want to try and rent/get from netflix, so if you have a movie rec, you should DROP IT HERE, plznthx!

Have you ever typed out all the emo, bullshit you were thinking/feeling, to get it out there, and then just deleted it without posting? Because I just did. I mean, I had a huge fucking post, and I feel a little better. I feel a little like throwing up, and things aren't fixed, but I feel a little better having gotten it off my chest in a way. TO KEEP WITH THE GETTING IT OFF MY CHEST, LET ME JUST SAY THIS.

FML!


Okay, and now I'm going to bed. Because I have to get up tomorrow, deal with it all, plus feed & water all the animals and probably clean the ferret cage. And see if there's any where else I can apply for a job online because I've only found a few places so far.

I AM HOME! I HAVE MY COMPUTER AND INTERNET BACK!

We spent 12 fucking hours in the car last night, because my parents had to stop to nap twice and we have a big ass canoe tied to the top of the truck. It was very, very stressful. But I am happy to be home! I had fun visiting my grandma and Rich & Diane, but HAPPY TO BE HOME.

Okay, now let me rant for a moment. SON OF A MOTHER FUCKER I BROKE MY FUCKING CD PLAYER TOO. I HAVE NO PORTABLE MUSIC PLAYER ATM. FML. Also, Diane's youngest kid came by on Sunday, with his son and stepdaughter, who were 2 & 8, and omg. Blake, the son, was so cute. And Madison, the step-daughter, was too, really. I had so much fun playing with them, but fucking hell if it didn't make me sad when they left because then all I could think about were "my" babies (aka Cassie's kids who I took care of for two months) and how much I missed them. I hate bad parents so much. :[

I HAVE TO CATCH UP ON JOURNAL ENTRIES AND MY GAMES NOW. AND FINISH UNPACKING AND FEEDING ANIMALS. URGH.

Well, fuck. Today has just been fucking amazing, let me tell you.

Okay, it hasn't been that bad. But it sucks. I woke up at 2AM and threw up. AND I AM SORRY, THIS IS GROSS. But when I throw-up, vomit comes out my nose. If you've never experienced this, you can not imagine how much it burns. It makes me cry every time and it usually burns for at least an hour. And it just sucked all around.

We're going away this weekend, so I was helping my mom weed the garden/flower beds. That in and of itself was not so bad. It wasn't fun, my legs hurt a little, and I looked like some kind of creature (I had mud EVERYWHERE), but now that I am all showered and clean? It kind of sucks. I have sunburn, my hands are all torn up (or, well, more my cuticles? It's weird, I am missing a huge chunk of skin around one of my finger nails and IDK why/how), and very dry feeling.

I just, ugh, I want to whine, okay. I feel icky and I don't like it.

I'm going to be 21 in three days, and if I actually stop to think about this at all, it's really fucking depressing. BUT I already feel like crap today, so I am basically refusing to think about the loser-ness. OKAY? OKAY.


Since I won't have internet while we're gone this weekend (omg, it's so terrible down there. Hotmail won't even load. :\) I'm going to work on some writing projects. Maybe write a couple narratives in my notebook. Work on Los Mordido. Try and do something with Akiko probably. IDK. I might even just write some poetry. I get pretty bored down there sometimes. Although, I think we're going to the zoo, which will be fun.

Oh, and me and mom might go to a bar. Just because. lol


Okay, I'm taking my whiney ass to lay down for awhile now.

YOU GUYS, I DO NOT APPROVE OF THIS. There's an Anita Blake movie coming out next year, and I am just.. no. IDK if it's live action or animation yet, but if it's LA then again, no. There is no way they found a cast worthy of the characters, there just isn't, and just. UGH. UGH, UGH, UGH. They are going to make me angry with this, I just know it. (That said, I just read Blood Noir, and OMG, JASON! SO, SO MUCH JASON. It pleased me because he's one of my very favorites.)

I also really don't understand why when a book is turned into a tv show, they then think they should REPRINT ALL THE BOOKS WITH NEW, STUPID FUCKING COVERS. I'm looking at you Sookie Stackhouse. >:| I like the old covers, okay, and I am doubting the new books are going to come out with the old ones due to this reprint nonsense.

I ALSO DON'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND WHY A SERIES WOULD PRINT THREE BOOKS IN SOFT COVER AND THEN DECIDED TO START IN HARDCOVER. Mother fuckers, I wanted my fucking book when it came out MONTHS ago, and you shanghai me with a fucking hardcover so I have to wait forfuckingever.

WHAT I NEED IS A JOB, SO I WILL HAVE MY OWN MONEY, AND THEN I CAN BUY THE FUCKING HARDCOVER INSTEAD OF WAITING. But, again, no one is fucking hiring meee yet. D: D: D:

WHY IS THIS POST SO ANGRY AND RANTY? IDK, IDK.

LEVERAGE IS BACK THE 15th! PSYCH IS BACK IN AUGUST! EUREKA IS BACK.. UM SOMETIME THIS MONTH. The 10th, I think, but am not sure. And, lol, 10 Things I Hate About You starts next week. It's going to suck, okay, but I am still excited. XD I am also kind of excited about Warehouse 13.

ALSO, DN UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPENED ON SYTYCD THIS WEEK. The bottom three was weird. :\ I did not understand. I did not like the ballet. J&P, R&E, and C&J are my favorite couples, though.

And since I'm on tv.. I meant to check out Vampire Diaries, but I think it might have started already? People have been talking about it, so I think it did, in which case.. whoops? Guess I'll try to download it sometime. I really need to remake my list of shows I want to watch at some point. ALSO PLEASE FEEL FREE TO RECOMMEND THINGS TO ME. I AM REALLY NOT PICKY AND WILL GIVE ANYTHING A CHANCE.

( I am all over the place. WORKING ON THE LIST OF SHOWS I WANT TO WATCH. )

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I would like to give a hardy OW. D: Dad called because there was suppose to be a HUGE storm over us, and he wanted us to get the umbrella and top off the swing, because the wind gets REALLY bad here, and didn't want to loose them/break them. So I ran outside to do it, and it was already raining, but of course it started raining harder once I got out there. And I slipped on one of the patio stones and mud, and slammed my big toe into another patio stone. Which hurts like a MFer, and bled all over, and now I'm soaking it in ice water so I don't loose my toenail because fucking gross.

Which is doubly awesome because we have a concert tomorrow. D: I mean :D because music! But D: my foots all fucked up. We're just going to the taste of Rockford, which was pretty pathetic last year, food wise, and we don't have any money for food really anyways, but we get to see the Stevee Nix, Green River Ordinance, and Dot Dot Dot play, which should be fun since I know and like band 1 & 3, and band 2 sounds good on their myspace.

Apparently we're suppose to be going to a couple more small festival things throughout the summer, so no big exciting concerts, but some music in my life nonetheless.

IT IS TOO HOT IN HERE. D: I do not approve of sweating just sitting at my desk...

My brother bought a bunch of PS2 games for his birthday, and I've been playing Bully. It's actually a lot of fun. Although I sucked at shop class.

Randomly, I kind of want to redo my mood theme, now that my eyebrows aren't huge. Hmmmm.

ETA: STENBOTBB, another reminder for yoooou. :)

1. If you could go back in time to change one choice in your life, what would it be? I would probably go back and change dropping out of school. Actually, no, that's not what I would change if I could only change one thing. I would go back to when Cassie asked me to take custody of Zayda when she joined the army and I would have signed the papers THAT SECOND. FUCK
2. What would you like your dying words to be? IDK, something I say a lot, like What the fucking fuck.
3. If you HAD to change bodies with someone you knew for 1 year, who would it be? Um, well if I HAD to, then I guess Dan (who I don't actually speak to anymore, but whatever) because he's the complete opposite of me, and it would be interesting.
4. Choose your favorite license plate combination. What does it read? Seriously? IDK how many numbers/letters are even in a fucking license plate number off the top of my head, wtf kind of question is this?
5. What fantasy world would you live in (i.e., movie, tv show, book)? Any of them, really. X-Men, Charmed, BtVS/Angel, Harry Potter, Roswell, Primeval, whatever. If there's something interesting and/or paranormal going on, then I'm game.

As a note, you may have noticed I stopped doing these every week they were posted. I've just been doing the ones that catch my interest or when I'm really bored.

FYI, I really adore Sonya. I don't even really like the couple she choreographed, and I LOVED it. I was kind of meh overall about the rest. Most of them were good/pretty, but nothing really grabbed me. (I have a really hard time getting into the waltz and other ballroom dances) ANNND, Mia's number tonight was awesome. I hope she choreographs something next week. That said, I am not thrilled with who went home tonight. :( I liked them both, bah.


STENBOTBB!
This is me reminding you to answer my questions/inquires about XD, plzkthx. :) Also, did your parents like their gift? ANNND why so amazing in yo stunna shades?
OH! OH! WAIT! ANOTHER THING! WOMAN, where is my Lights? Hmmmmm?? :D


It is so hot in here right now IDEK what I wanted to talk about. OH! You guys, Hawk Nelson is awesome, as is Fountains of Wayne. IDK why I didn't know how fun/good they both were before, but now I do and am HAPPY about it. YDEK. I'm going to rec some music later, I think, because I've got a whole bunch of stuff I'm really digging lately that I doubt most of you know/have heard, and yes. SHARING IS CARING.

I'm working on layout banners, atm, and IDK why really because I was working on icons, but whatev, I am easily distracted, and it's fun. I'm really liking what I've done so far. Granted two of them I could share, but they're character related and I don't really see anyone else being interested. lol

ALSO ON THE LOL FRONT, I doubt I'm getting my tattoo for my birthday like I planned, because we found this AMAZING little thrift store in town, and omg, I want to spend LOTS of money there. And since NO ONE IS HIRING ME YET (ugh, wtf, fail, I hate this) I will have to make it my birthday money. As much as I love tattoos and WANT ANOTHER one, I think clothes are probably a little more important. Because if someone does hire me, I don't really have anything to wear to work, lol.

Okay, I am going to finish reading this fic now. :D


( TO-DO LIST! )

*whines* I am too hot/lazy/unproductive feeling to finish my to-do list. D: